Moms and their babies … I never knew how strong that bond was until I gave birth to my son.
Yesterday it dawned on me when my sister told me she was getting her epidural and about to give birth to the most beautiful little girl. I remember like yesterday going thru the same process with my babies… and it reminds me why I am so attached to my children. They were literally apart of my body…. I went thru a scary and painful procedure to meet my little pieces of heaven that I get to love on each and everyday. Mothers have a bond with their children that is so unexplainable… I cannot imagine life without them…. Not even a day without them… Heck not even 3 hours at a preschool without them.
Today I realized there will be many milestone I will have to conquer with my children and sometimes that means I’ll have to have moments without them. Today it was preschool… I reminded myself all yesterday and this morning “it’s the best for him… He’ll love socializing with the other kids… He’ll be ok” just to keep myself from getting emotional. I didn’t want brooks to see me upset. I knew I had to stay strong and positive for him. We dropped him off in his classroom and initially he was having a good time… In a dream world of new toys he hasn’t laid hands on yet. We gave him a kiss and told him we would be back which he completely ignored considering we’ve never left him before. We headed to the sanctuary to sign papers for orientation and headed to the car which passes his classroom. So obviously we looked in the tiny window to see what Brooks was doing (praying he was still all smiles). As soon as I glanced in that window, I see Mrs J holding him as he was crying … I can’t imagine what he must have been thinking… Mommy and daddy betrayed me? Who are these people? Why did they leave me? My mind was racing with all the questions going through my head. I knew I had to get into the car before I lost it or ran into the classroom to pick up my distressed son and let him know it’s all ok.
As soon as we got in th car, my husband and I literally watched every minute that went by… Waiting on noon! It felt like a lifetime! I wanted to know what he was doing.. Was he ok? As parents we would love to be a fly on the wall.. Watching over our kids every second of the day.. But in reality it’s impossible. We can only pray and trust God because he is the only one who has the power to do so.
11:10 hit the clock and my phone rang. It was Mrs B , the head lady. She was calling to let me know that Brooks was upset, and she wanted to see if I could pick him up to not only to take away his emotional distress but to build trust with Brooks and the school. We threw on our shoes and ran out the door.
Brooks was waiting with Mrs. J at the front doors. As soon as he saw me, he pointed at me and you could see his whole demeanor change. He was back into my arms until next Tuesday. We hugged one another so tight… I could feel a sense of relief come over me.
Tuesday will be here sooner than I want it to… So in the meantime… I’ll continue to hold my forever baby boy.
Deuteronomy 6:7 You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise.
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